My NOTICING for this day!
The NAKED TRUTH event took place early this month- and that had been an answer to a prayer that was 20 years old. I felt a FREEDOM that I have not felt for a long time. I wasn’t afraid of what others would say because I sensed so strongly that God had not only called us to host this conference but had grabbed me by the wrist and led to the next person, or thing to do since the day I first heard his voice on this. I was focused on women I love and care for. and I was certain of God’s presence and pleasure as we built the platform for Linda and Juli to come to Lima.
Real healing came in the way women were responsive to the truths at the NAKED TRUTH event, I continue to hear from women – married or single, young or old- that God met them and is taking them to a new place
- in their understanding of themselves,
- in their relationship with their mate, or understanding of a relationship in the past or of the future.
- in their relationship with God.
But healing came for me
as I led worship that weekend – for the first time in a very long time. I have to admit I have been closed to it. Yes some of it was the physical strain it had on me. Some of it was because Leisha & I had shared that love- so it held a grief place for me. But some of it was because of a barrier on my heart. I was afraid of others judgement. I was too self consumed in my own emotions. I had a great deal of uncertainty about God because of events in my story.
But on that weekend, I wasn’t afraid, or consumed or uncertain. I worshiped because I SAW GOD! He parted the waters for us to walk on dry land! It was a pleasure to lead worship of women who walked with me across the sea!
This past weekend, I led worship again at my church. In most ways, that is not a big deal. But for me, it was one more healing of a place in my life that I thought was broken. At first I was just filling in on Saturday night for our Worship Pastor who had been asked to perform a wedding for friends. He was going to take over on Sunday. But Sunday morning he challenged me. “You and the team already know what you are doing, why not just lead this morning too?” Hmm!
I heard a man I admire a great deal, invite me to his platform- that place where he is strong, where he leads us each week, and gives us confidence and music and words for our worship. I watched as he helped make it a strong place for me- not just this weekend as he became a vocalist alongside me, but over the last 6 years. He has let me hide, but has always challenged me when he sensed I was ready for a next step. This day he said, “Lead us! I’ll sing with you.” I said “Let’s do it!”
Encouragement, challenge, support! Thank you Pastor Jason Hinkle for keeping on with me! I am grateful that God is restoring a part of my life I thought was dead. Not just as a worship leader, but as a worshiper.
OK DEAR READER , are you listening?
Have you NOTICED all this?
STOP in your tracks!
TAKE IN God’s miracle wonders in your own life!